"What now?"

The place God calls you to is the place where your deep happiness and the world’s deep hunger meet.
— Frederick Buechner

In the past month, I have moved in with a friend. Taught my niece how to paint with water color. Settled into a new part time job. Applied for a different job. Turned down a crazy promotion at the recently acquired job. Then quit it.

Accepted a crazy awesome position in another city.

Left my beloved job of three years.

Eaten the juiciest peach I have ever had.

Moved cities.

Lay on the beach as the salty ocean waves tangled sand in my hair.

Released my website. Had a ballin' release party. 

Spent a night under the stars.

Watched a sun rise over the sugar cane fields in my back yard.

Passed down the faithful dodge. Purchased my dream car.


It has been a glorious whirlwind.

And it has been nothing short of an incredible testimony of the Lord’s faithfulness, provision, and pure goodness.


It is also the opposite of what I thought my life was going to look like 5 months after college graduation.


I did not think I would be the River Region Chamber of Commerce Communications Assistant.  I did not think I would be moving back to my hometown. I did not think I would be in the United States for that matter.

In fact, I was making plans to be in Guatemala for the month of October when I was contacted about this position.

As a recent college graduate, my answer to the classic, “What now?” question would be, “I want to be a photojournalist. I want to do mission work.”


The typical responses I received?

“Well now is the time.”

“Do all that stuff you want to do now.”

“You will figure it out.”

 “Get it out of your system.”

At this, my spirit always stood up and took offence.

I never know exactly what "it" they are referring to, but something deep inside me rejects this statement.  What if this "it" is what my system is made up of? 

What if I don’t want to get it out? To purge myself of my dreams? What if I just want to live them and never stop? And what if I don't want to figure it out? 

Some people would call me crazy. A hippie. Immature. Naive. Some would say my dreams and attitude don’t necessarily fit in with a professional atmosphere.

I have been told,  "You need a reality check."

But the thing is, I have seen reality, and I am only further convinced that it is imperative that I chase my dreams with urgency.

I know what the world looks, but that doesn’t mean I have to change the way I look at it.

I want people to know that there is One who can change their reality. I believe He can change the world through those who believe in Him.

My adventure doesn’t end now that I have a “big girl job.” It will not end when I get “married and have kids.” Nor will it begin there. I don’t want to wait for anything but peace from the Lord to live out my dreams. I want to live them every day.

My adventure doesn’t look the same as I thought it would at this point in my life, but that doesn’t make it any less of an adventure. I have a feeling my calling and work, as a photojournalist and missionary will take on a lot of different forms throughout my lifetime. Something the Lord put on my heart a long time ago is the truth that, anywhere there are lost and hurting people, is the mission field.

 Next week I am going to tell you all a little bit about my time in Haiti- Confessions of a Photo Journalist Part I. In the mean time, share, comment, and spread the love! 





Here are just some pics I had on my phone from the past few months. <3

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